As 2015 winds to an end I find it’s been quite a strange year all in all. Personally, the year started with saying goodbye to Erin and Alex who continue on with their life journey in Toronto. Then was the loss of my cat Domino, who passed away at age 14. We now are down to one dog and one cat.
It’s been a year of decisions. My jeep that has been sitting waiting for money to get the brakes fixed since November 2014 now has a dead battery and at last look either a dead battery cable or dead starter or both. I put it up for sale in August but people either want it for almost free or they want it running and certified, which, sadly so do I. If it were I’d be driving it. I could have used the money if it sold but as the year ends it still sits there in my driveway.
It’s been a year of discovering my own truth. I discovered that there really is a bias that happens at 50 and you will get denied opportunity. I won’t go into detail but it was said to my face so I have to believe it. It makes me sad that once again I’m forced to see that no matter how good you are or how much knowledge or experience you have it’s all about agendas and where you fit into it. And I don’t. So. That leads me back to decisions. I have no idea how long it’s going to take me to pay off everything we owe and bank enough to pay the bills for a year but that’s my plan. Whenever I do leave this next time it will definitely be my last. I will not go back to work where I’m not appreciated again. Unfortunately it’s going to take a long time because I’ll never get a real promotion again I don’t think. At least that’s the way it looks to me right now.
I say that I need a year’s worth of bill paying ability because as of this date we are still waiting for Jim’s not so great Old Age Security, one year and three months after he turned 65. CPP by the way is pocket change, not a real retirement sum so if you do have any chance to have input on upping the CPP payout, please agree to it. Someday you’ll thank yourself and the people already retired who are getting a pittance will thank you. I also think that the Guaranteed Income Supplement should be based on individual income, not family income. It isn’t fair to dual income families who suddenly wind up with one person making pocket change and waiting forever for marginally better OAS while the other has to carry the load. Not many middle income earners have planned for one year or more of nothing coming in.
But on the bright side, I finally started painting again. I have one painting that is now donated to The Ville, and I have the canvas for 3 more that I’ll be starting shortly. It’s been a good year for me creatively.
Off-Air is finally published in paperback and as a Kindle edition, I Ching Jukebox finally made it as a Kindle edition, my poetry book as well became a Kindle edition. I also posted my very first novel and am in process of posting my second novel that I wrote in my 20s. I am also in the middle of writing a novel that started with Nanowrimo 2014. I did try Nano again this year but ran out of time. I’ve been very busy but I’m glad I did attempt it. So you see, me and Genève Blue have been working away. I also submitted an entry into the CBC short story contest for the first time in forever.
So – looking forward, 2016 should be an interesting year. There is a wedding to attend in September (yay!!) and aside from my paintings to do I plan to finish the two novels in progress. I will also take my Troll of Barondale children’s story and create the drawings for it so I can publish that one too. I actually woke up on morning seeing it as an animated short but unfortunately, like the other ideas I have for animation I’m not sure how to do that without some pretty decent software. I need to take another animation course I think, but probably not this year. Time and lack of money forbids it.
Beyond that, who knows what 2016 has in store for me. So on that note I will say, please people follow your heart and treat others with compassion. Don’t let the darkness steal your light away, the world needs it.
In love and light, à la prochaine,