Cathi’s Comments for December 31, 2013

Oh what a year this has been! If there were to be one image that symbolizes it, it would phoenix rising – the year where from the ashes of a very dark time, my whole world turned around. If you want to read the updates that didn’t make it to this home page, I did put them on my Comments Archives page for the current year. 

Getting back to my year, it started with being interviewed and offered a job in Fredericton – this was a job I applied for before I left the government and because I had done that and it was under a year since I left it was possible to go back with all of my status and everything. It took some negotiation and timing was everything for both the new office and me so at the beginning of June I started working again at the Ottawa location until I sold the house.

Now knowing my horror story of the last couple of years working that led me to taking early retirement in the first place, I guess the first thing most people would think is: have you lost your mind? Well, yeah, but to understand that when I retired I planned to sell the house and move to Fredericton, you could say that fit the plan. The reality was that until I sold the house, my financial problems were still looming heavily over my head. All of my equity was in the house, and how would I move without a place to go to? It would take money and a decent credit rating to do that on my own. I resolved that yes, to fulfill this dream I would go back, but this time keeping in mind that I really am just a number in the grand scheme of things so what is the upmost important thing is never to let my job steal my time and myself again. My plan now that I’m where I want to be is to finish paying off everything, retire on full retirement instead of partial, and do upgrades to the house I’d like to have done so that when I do retire, I won’t have much to think about.

I won’t go into the selling of the old house – that’s in the archives if you want to know what happened – all I can say is I’m happy to be in a lovely bungelow that is the same age as I am and much more easy to take care of. Moving in we put up a fence on the side to keep a promise to the dog and cats; we go on frequent walks with the dog on our little street that ends in a forest and where we see deer wandering around. We also bought a snowblower and are very glad we did, since November we’ve had heaps of snow, twice the regular amount for this area for December.

Beyond the moving, I’ve let go of my dream of finishing my degree for the time being, the reason being that I am so close to the University of New Brunswick that I want to explore what part time courses I can take that is more in keeping with where my mind and heart are leading me. At the moment my creativity is calling strongly so the courses I take next will tie in computer programming and art and probably film. I kind of miss my camera work at Cogeco so the thought of learning script writing, film editing and filming for movies is now percolating in my mind, as is my long time love of animation. So you see, that dream isn’t dead, it’s just evolving.

As for my writing, I submitted one novel to a publisher at the beginning of the year and….crickets are chirping so I might publish that one myself this year. The humorous novel I started in Nanowrimo in 2012 is still being worked on; it may wait until I retire again before I try to publish that one simply because of the topic I’m making fun of :). Nanowrimo 2013 was started and I realized that to do that one takes some research so that was the end of Nano for me this year, and yes, I now have two unfinished books. I did also submit to the CBC essay contest and didn’t win. Laundromat Girl is licking its wounds on my WordPress site. I’ll put a link to it on my essays page eventually. Needless to say, writing is still my number one creative love, one I haven’t slowed down on at all.

If have anything to say about where I am now it’s that I so love Fredericton, I really do. The people, the food, the two markets, the appreciation of the arts and music that exists here, the opportunities for learning and growth and also the fact we’re close to Prince Edward Island and to Nova Scotia which means that there will be many fun day trips next summer.

I usually have something to say about world events but quite frankly the horror and freakshow that was 2013 pretty much leaves me speechless. The passing of Nelson Mandela leaves a hole in the world’s conscience that I can only hope will be filled by someone someday soon. If I have any wish for 2014 it’s that corporate greed and heartless politics see an end or at least the beginning of the end. We as societies must evolve in a way that brings back heart and soul (and by that I do mean soul, not religion) to everything we do. Dare I hope? Time will tell but I sense a trend heading that way.

So that’s where I leave my 2013 end of year message. Go in peace, go in love, and let your light shine.

À la prochaine,

Cathi …..


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